Depressed?: Regression?: Da-Da Ta!: Thoughts.

Yes, this is another rant of feelings. Eh, mayhaps it's not such a good idea. I'm tired. I often wonder too frequently how did I get into this situation? I'm studying the subject of my dreams: geography. But somehow, I have signed up for a minor in computer science, GIS, and Chinese language as well as a citation in College Park Scholars International Studies. Hmm, I probably sound overambitious, but I'm already in threat of failing the first computer science course. I can only hope for a curve. Otherwise, I will probably need to drop out. Well, perhaps I'm being melodramatic. *sighs* My plans are if I do fail this course, then I will retake it over the summer and work harder and work on better organization of time and focus of attention.

I also wonder: do I have the right to blame my foolishness in adding one more course to end up taking 6 courses totaling 17 credits? It's not the same as 6 courses totaling 16 credits. Totally not because it's not same. Because I have went through more of these situation, I am of the opinion that 1 credit really do make a difference. Even though only one of my courses is one credit compared to last semester where two of my courses were one credit. I think I can only blame myself for not thinking rationally and taking a risk at the beginning of this semester. I am nearly at utter ruin.

Perhaps the real blame lies with myself, not the decision. Perhaps if I were able to organized my time better, then I would have done better. Woulda, Shoulda, Coulda. Too late, Too bad. Tough luck.

I need to work on playing go and such.